Our story is about sharing a “Word in Need “ for anyone going through this precious cycle of life in the most truthful and powerful way . To enable each one of us to see the value in us , perhaps not seen or understood in the reality of the Word of God yet. This , sharing a word with others will enable a person to continue his journey not only in this world but till eternity , which the scripture defines as light or wisdom . The expression of this light is true Love. This Love expressed as light is not within our ability , but by the guidance of the Holy spirit within each one of us. Today it will be us , but tomorrow we expect you to share with others who seek this light in this world of darkness .
It would be necessary to tell everyone concerning what my Father did for me. This is a note I wrote in 2011. At the time I wrote this below experience, please note the light or wisdom I carried was like a child . This is my experience I like to share for each one of those who have not been through it . Perhaps some of you can identify with me in my particular situation . Kindly do not draw any conclusions based on this story, it is only an honest real experience I went through long time back which I want to share. I want to give the complete glory to Him and there is no compromise on that. That’s the reason it has taken sometime to pen this down. I believe it’s the right time that the Holy Spirit has provoked me to do it through this portal. If ,I don’t witness Him, the stones around will rise and speak out. The truth is, my Father loves me..just like he loves each one of you.. There is one more prodigal added in His list. I may not be able to see Him. But He is in me. In my thoughts and as my inner voice when I seek Him.
For 38 years the man at pool Bethsiada was binded , for 38 years the children of Israel were roaming in the wilderness and finally came to the border near Canaan called Kadesh Barnea . 38 is the year of my salvation, healing and rebirth.
Isaiah 55:12
12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
It was a pleasant day in April 2011. I had come from an US official trip back to Dubai. The trip from Atlanta to Dubai was smooth. I couldn’t get any sleep on the plane, I was watching TV on the flight. I wished I had more time to watch the movie on flight. Reaching Dubai, I couldn’t sleep for another 2 days. I was having a burning sensation in my chest area ; was feeling very uncomfortable after reaching here. Papa and mummy were here for a few days after their trip from Israel and they were not ready for what was to follow. We spent the 1st few days talking about their Israel trip. Mummy was joking about the food and how the people were rampaging over the Buffet served without any mercy perhaps also with the fear that they may not get any more food. It reminded me of the Israelites who collected Manna more than they needed and tried to store it for the next day. God brought down their plans of storing extra for the next day. Well I was kind of like that in my career, work, family ….till this thing came in my life. It was very normal of me to get my work done quickly and on time, akin to a Martha of Bethany. I never waited for anyone, always trying to race myself ahead. I have this nature of getting things done the minute I get the job. I have my own internal panic button which rushes me to do things and oddly one may not notice it ‘cause I try and do it so skilfully . Well I know it sounds like some of us. There is a time in everyone’s life that God allows you to go through a pruning experience. It is not at all easy and He will make sure that we reach a point that we learn to depend only on HIM.
Panic leads to anxiety. Anxiety leads to worry. Worry added with Fear is the platform from which satan operates. Fear and anxiety are like a hand grip or a handle you provide for satan to operate. I would now resolutely say that, “ Don’t allow yourself to reach that stage . Don’t allow satan to latch on to that hand grip .” I wouldn’t write anything like this in 2011 during the time I was unwell. I wouldn’t be able to do it. Now it’s easy for me to write like this because Lord Jesus Christ has shown mercy to this sinner. I’m washed by His Righteousness.
Coming back to the main storyline ,the dreams I had were very demonic, something like a face of a ghost similar to Luttapi / a black casper emerging from the roof of a black temple. I kept thinking something or the other while sleeping; always tossing and rolling over. After a long struggle I literally doze off due to the weariness in not getting sleep. Early morning I was feeling drained out and tensed. It seemed my heart was beating fast and I was panic struck for no reason. Fear started gripping me. I was thinking that I will never be able to sleep. I forgot the art of sleeping. This really brought me down. It was impossible for me to sleep. My head was spinning and was feeling a kind of rotation at the lower backside of my head. I was getting more conscious of myself. Back of my mind, I had a guilty conscious of all the sins in my life though I had asked forgiveness long time back. All these were tormenting me at the same time, both body and soul. I was really melting inside. My mind became very feeble and soft like butter. My chest was burning, restless and was feeling horrible. I prayed alone closing the room. I looked up and desperately pleaded God for help . I cried a lot. Asked forgiveness from the bottom of my heart and tears were falling unstoppably. My wife Sobha prayed with me. Papa also prayed with me.
Papa and myself went to see a ear specialist the following day . He gave me a tablet, usually given to patients for head spinning. Nothing much changed with the medicine though the spinning reduced a bit. Papa and mummy were here on their vacation. Sobha was worried about me. I was crying loud in my room to God, to forgive me, tears came rolling like a river. The heart beat and the burn was increasing. The very next day I received a call from my office for a high level telecon meeting with a new fitness company. My GM and our Director from the principal, EMEA office was to have a teleconference with our Client. My GM wanted me to be there for the meeting so badly. I said I’m not in a position to be there with them and I couldn’t drive since I couldn’t get proper sleep for last 3 days. They said they will sent someone to pick me. I told sobha,mummy and papa about it. They said to go ahead , so that I can get away from this mood. They could already feel my situation going haywire. Papa and mummy couldn’t handle the situation and they felt very weird . They felt something is wrong here. Sobha gave me the courage and God worked through her prophetically. My mind was very soft and feeble like a small child. I was crying inwardly and was sober. Papa asked me what message I got after reading the Bible. The message was from Isaiah, that I will prosper in the land for many years. Papa said, it meant the richness in Christ. Richness in the Spirit.
I was the sales manager of the company. I had a few people reporting to me. There was lot of tasks and daily challenges like any office .In proverbs 30: 27 it says, “ An unjust man is an abomination to the just: and he that is upright in the way is abomination to the wicked.” No one to blame as such , its part of the package. It was at the peak of my job, I had received the 2nd best sales guy award in the group just a few days back before this happened.
My colleague , came to pick me up for the meeting. He told me about his daughter who was hospitalized. I asked him about his daughter and told him that God is going to heal her. I was immersed in the Lord 24/7. I wanted to be something for Christ. I was immensely affected by any small pain anyone had, as I mentioned ,my mind was like a soft butter. It’s something like, even when children shouted or cried, I got distressed. It was always my desire to do something for the Lord. I would easily feel sad for any small reason. My mind became so feeble. I felt an emptiness. Satan was slowly crawling in. I was like thinking very low. That’s when satan tries to diminish you. I lost interest in anything. I felt useless to be precise. My mind didn’t allow me to see the bright side of things. My thinking became very negative and devalued myself. I saw only the dark side of things and fear crawled in. As I mentioned earlier I was a kind of panic freak and workaholic in the milder sense. Although I was close to the Lord and did a lot of things. I had never learned to depend on him totally. I have not had any major illness, at least lets say from my 5th class. God was very merciful to me even during the time of my reckless life at school and college. Ever since I got married, I grew closer to the Lord and was really hungry for him. I wanted to be nice and keep myself pure. I have fought temptations so valiantly against our adversary. There were remnants of those sins left in me; though I felt it may be light, for God it is sin. May be I have not asked God the forgiveness of my sins in the manner he expected .God had raised me up at work in the last 10 years. I thank the Lord that I got Sobha as my wife. God has worked on me through her too.
In the meeting, they were discussing and having a teleconference. I was hearing them partly. My mind was constantly thinking about many other things. I was forcing myself to get into the Godly realm. As an effort, I was assuming in my mind that they were like Abraham and some other prophets .I wanted to keep myself thinking about God and related characters in the Bible. It made me feel secure and dependent. A strange feeling came to my mind ,that as children how we used to have a different code language to talk to the Lord. It was a beautiful language like a nursery rhyme, and I felt that I knew it while I was a small boy. It didn’t seem something new. It was something which I always knew before a long time, while I was a small kid. This thought was actually a dream I had the night before. I kept thinking like this as I wanted to pursue God so badly.It came to a point that the meeting was over. We shook hands and I commented that they had done a good job. Honestly my mind was elsewhere. I had this great passion inside me to tell about Jesus to these people. Probably by doing that, the Lord might show some kindness to me by relieving my bodily pain and anxiety. I have a great passion in serving the Lord. I was determined to do it, I felt that it might be my last chance before death. I felt my body was decaying and was reaching death . A remorse feeling came to my mind,that my soul was at office and my body was actually kept at home. And all the people gathered at home were conducting my funeral. All this was only in my thinking . It was a satanic activity as I look back. Rewinding back when I was in the US, at the Hotel I read a Mormon bible kept in the room. Sobha later told me that during that afternoon at home, as papa was sleeping he was calling out my name during the sleep. An inner fear was overriding all my thought process.
A group of people were walking outside the office, familiar faces. I went out saw them, came back telling my managers that it was the army of the Lord. They were a bit confused and realized that something was bizzare . I took that opportunity to change their attention away from business. I started talking to them about Abraham and tried to convince them about the Trinity. I was trying to take the example of a hen, egg as a means to explain the Trinity. It was totally unsuccessful. I was trying to tell them about God, how He came as a Son of God to this world. They felt I was out of control and weird. Indeed I was to anyone who saw my actions and anxiety . I was not actually out of control, I took it as an opportunity to witness our Lord. The Principal Director went outside the office and told our Managing director (owner of our company) about my situation. Our MD , I have never sat with him all these 10 years in the company. I took this as an opportunity to proclaim to him about the Lord. I did every thing possible to enact Jesus, how he came as a servant to wash our legs and began dancing and singing. In my mind it was my last opportunity to display my love towards the Lord. They gave me water to drink and gave me a medicine to doze off. Sobha in the meanwhile was trying for me continuously. My mobile was switched off. She was getting upset. She called my colleague. In the meanwhile our designer also joined in the office. There were a few other people , a doc from the pharma division. I was telling them all about Abraham, the father of believers and all related stories about how Jesus came as a son. They thought that something was wrong with me, it was very obvious from the way I was behaving. With much resistance I took the medicine. I didn’t want to have the medicine, I determined that I will not fall for this medicine and sleep , it happened likewise, I didn’t sleep . They were asking me to go back home. The designer called Sobha and said that I was behaving in a strange way. The truth was that I wanted to tell the gospel to Arabs and everyone around so badly. I was not bothered about being foolish in front of the world. Then MD spoke to my wife courteously , he asked what was wrong with me and asked her whether I was seeing a psychiatrist. She got really alarmed, she requested I be sent back home immediately. They called an ambulance. I was trying to prolong my time with them in speaking about the Lord because I couldn’t portray our Lord in the way I wanted. I told them that if they believe , they will see a Miracle today . All of them got tired, and my GM came & talked to me very strictly that I should go back home right now. I finally gave in and obeyed him. I even tried to show them examples of how sin came into this world. As you know Muslims believe in the righteouness through works of man . I was checking whether they were wearing inner white baniyans, as a symbolic example of being inwardly pure. Even I knew it looked like I was being weird. But I relished those things in the Lord. But unfortunately, it didn’t click the way I intended it to be. I didn’t have the sufficient wisdom to express the Message of Cross to a Muslim, it was very tedious. I felt like a fool. My company, MD & GM were kind enough to handle everthing so considerately within their limits.
The ambulance took me to Rashid hospital. Papa, Sobha , Boban uncle (mercy auty’s husband) and few of my colleagues came to see me at the hospital. The doctor on duty asked me what had gone wrong. I told him about what had happened and also tried telling him about the Lord.
I had a fear about the hospital people trying to report this matter to police, since talking about Jesus in a Muslim country is inappropriate. I always wanted the Muslims to know about the Lord, I was always waiting for the day where God will raise people in the MiddleEast . My designer colleague said that I should never attempt to talk like this at office or outside. Fear started gripping me.
Everybody around was feeling that I was getting freaked out. Started losing grip over my self. I was discharged from hospital within 1 hour. They checked my blood sugar, it was a bit high. Even papa and mummy thought that something was wrong with me, I will not blame them . Sobha was very consoling, she talked to me like an angel sitting beside. She was continuously talking to me from the WORD. It was prophetic.
I couldn’t sleep well, it took me long hours to sleep late 3 o clock in the morning. Every night she had to lay hands on me in the middle of the night and pray for me touching my forehead . Blood of Jesus and marking the cross on my forehead. Fear gripped me, my body was not in a good condition. I lost appetite. The fear of work , fear of people looking at me as a sick guy . I was worried about Sobha, children etc. I started looking around my circumstances. I couldn’t control my mind. It was so strong and unbearable . Never felt like this, in my whole life. I realised how normal people could get mad and crazy. I was feeling like a washed out piece of Old rag. I feared that I would lose control over my normal thinking and get crazy. Satan was ravaging my mind so badly. That was the time I realized the agony of people on the street, those poor people who have lost their presence of mind. I could relate their thought process. The bottom of my feet had a strange sensation, my shoulders started drooping in, it was aching.
It was time for papa and mummy to go back .They never understood completely the level of problem at that time. They had to go to Abu Dhabi airport. I left them at the airport office in Dubai, they had to catch a bus from there later on. In short I was going through a depression. I’m proud that my Lord allowed me to go through that wilderness experience. Or else I wouldn’t have this new birth even our whole family. I started getting tired of myself.
We started visiting hospital after hospitals, conducting endless tests to find what my problem was. It was so tiring . I was working too, all the while , doing all my daily activities. My sugar ,cholestrol, triglyceride, thyroxine all went high. I was really looking forward to have some medicines, so that my issues would be resolved. I used to have a pain underneath my feet , my shoulders were getting tired regularly. I was trying to relate it with my sugar and all other deficiencies. We couldn’t find out the exact problem.
Sandstorm incident: We love sandstorms. Whenever we see a sandstorm, we Praise the Lord. It reminds us about His love. The head spinning was still there while I was sleeping . As my thyroxine had gone up,I was desperate to bring it down A Muslim doctor had recommended a medicine for my overall nervous condition . We got out of the clinic, proceeded towards the pharmacy, 15 m away from the clinic. A sandstorm started blowing, in the most resistive way. It was as if trying to stop me from going forward. I was getting this thought in my mind that I should not go ahead (Holy Spirit inner feeling). When I reached the pharmacy, they told me that this particular medicine was not available. I wanted to get that medicine somehow the same night itself and get myself cured. We went around several pharmacies. Nowhere the medicine was available. Next day early morning , I called up Regi,a friend at Church,I gave him the name of the medicine. He said this medicine is generally taken by people who have Fits, epilepsy and convulsions. He was like why do you… need it . Immediately I knew God was protecting me. The same day evening I thought of doing the Thyroxine test once again. The reading became normal. God saved me from a greater danger. I don’t know what would have happened, had I taken that prescription tablet. Hallelujah…
I lost around 10kgs. My tongue was always sticky. The state of your mind affects the body. Papa told me one thing- don’t worry about your body, just be concerned about your soul. I started losing my self confidence. God’s intention was to make my inner man stronger. We always try to feed our Outer man (flesh) with the education, job, wealth ,food ,pleasure etc. It would not help, as the outer man decays day by day . One needs to feed the inner man with His Manna the living word.
Sobha was sitting with me continuously talking to me from the Bible starting from Abraham. We started to pray together on our kneels. The daily Bible portion she used to read always related to my issue on that particular day. It was a miracle. I got the Heavenly Manna through Sobha. We could relate our situation with David, how he was told to retreat back from the war field by the Philistine kings and where his wife and children were stolen . I was washed by the Word and lived through it. When your situation is bad, satan tries his best to nail the rest of you. We had an instance where we lost Nethen at supermarket for half an hour. The Adversary was shooting his arrows from all sides. At job I had immense pressure. I was brought down from my previous position in the company. Talking about Christ to them is also like blasphemy and arrogance to them. I was thinking about tomorrow, I lost interest in myself. Satan will try to pull you from all sides, to rip you apart like a prowling lion. I was looking in the mirror and feeling bad. God worked through Sobha , in reviving my situation. She never used to talk prophetically before. She did now. We had started going for the family prayer on every Friday at Mercyaunty’s house when Papa & Mummy came. Lot of people prayed for me. At work all were like I was stressed out. That was not true. They hired another guy in my position.
I thought that I will never get out of this. Depression had hit me so badly. It was a wilderness experience. We were going through fire. But we kept getting messages from the Lord so supernaturally at the time we were broken and full of remorse. I had a sleeping problem almost for 1 year. In all critical moments God talked to us through people, emails, through the Bible. At work I was put at pressure. I felt like a ridicule. Opportunists were utilizing the situation so nicely. They cut my salary. Some questioned , what do I have to say now- after the salary being cut. I said you are doing it because my God is working according to His Will for my life and I am ready for that . We were determined to fight this out, because the Lord was our Fighter. I was allowing the Lord to control my Life. I stopped thinking about myself and my situation. It was no longer me living, I wanted Christ to replace me. That was the solution. It was one of those bad days in which I used to think that I will never come out of this situation. God gave me a verse from Psalms 27.
Psalms 27:13, 14
I know that I will live to see
the Lord's goodness in this present life.
14 Trust in the Lord.
Have faith, do not despair.
Trust in the Lord.
The people around started speaking bad about me, they were telling people around that I was not well. They were thinking that I may leave the job etc. I was to find sale , like how I started 10 years back , all alone like a newly joined sales executive.
It was a struggle. My sale was down very low in 2011. I didn’t get any benefits as a sales manager that year. It was as low as 2.5 million Dirhams that year. In the meanwhile, I had been taking medicine for sugar, the doctor declared me as diabetic. Fear started ruling me so fiercely. Never felt so feeble & the nothingness made me sick. We started praying like never before. I started to talk myself out of it. When I go around for my evening walk. I always praise the Lord loudly:- Praise Jehovah, Hallelujah, Thank you Jesus, Holy spirit, Blood of Jesus. Even now every day we sing this Praise before prayer. We started watching TBN channels all the time, Benny hinn, Joyce meyer, Joseph prince, Reinhard bonnke, Ravi Zacharias, Paul crouch, Heidi Baker, Katt kerr, Praise the Lord programs, Joel Osteen, Gregory Dickow, Kathyrn Kulhmann, Bill Burke, Jack Coe, David Wilkerson, Kenneth Hagin, Bill Johnson, T.D.Jakes, Oral Roberts, A.A.Allen, Billy graham ministries, almost all on planet earth. I started eating the word 24/7. I always keep the Bible in the car audio whenever I drive. I used to sleep embracing the Bible beside me .I had to talk myself, sometimes by proclaiming and declaring against my circumstance, that I would fight my depression- so mechanically at times , though my Flesh mind was pulling me down. We started declaring the Lord’s Word in our Life. I started claiming all the promises in Bible. We were together very active in meeting the sick, praying for them, laying hands upon them. We tried to talk to lot of people around including Hindus about our Lord. We make use of every opportunity where ever we are to witness him. It was a passion for me to meet people who where going through depression. I met Sumod, my cousin last time at Kochi, I spoke about my experience with him.
In 2011 when we went back to Kerala for vacation, it was a difficult time for me. It was during my cousin Nithin’s marriage. People noticed how weak I became. I was soft, frail , any comments from our family and deared ones would affect me a lot. And you know sometimes how our people are, they are so cut right and make absurd comments. We already were determined , to be open minded inspite of any remarks. Though my feeble mind couldn’t take it at that time. The darkness was invading my mind. Intially I used to stay aloof not liking to tell about myself to others and about the problems I was facing. Sobha told me to fight over it and we started telling and sharing our experience with others. Although it was painful initially eventually it became a joy for us and people could relate with their own situation. This is a warfare against the evil principalities to speak over and witness. I could really understand how a person would feel during depression or stress. No one can understand it until one actually goes through it. Do you know what we think most , during such time?... We think more about ourselves. Satan tries to make you focus on yourself and your circumstances. Instead of thinking about God, we look down. It is very dangerous. I forced myself to think only about the Lord. It was a struggle for me. Satan will try to reduce and diminish you, that is his weapon. He gets into it through our fear initially .Our situation, our feeling, our sickness, our bad condition are just LIES. Your thinking pattern becomes distorted & feeble. The truth is different, “As He is, so are we in this world. The truth is:- As Jesus is placed at the right hand of God so are we. (Ephesians 2:5-7, even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), 6 and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, 7 that in the ages to come He might show the exceeding riches of His grace in His kindness toward us in Christ Jesus.)
The Word of God is a sharp sword, it cuts through our bones and our soul . At times his Word talks to us so sharply. An instance, at office,I started facing dejection at work. My junior ,Cyrus was given a position as my manager. The same day in the morning before I knew about this, the Word we got was from Isaiah,” the Lord appoints Cyrus.
Isaiah 45;- ‘This is what the Lord says to his anointed,
to Cyrus, whose right hand I take hold of
to subdue nations before him
and to strip kings of their armour,
to open doors before him
so that gates will not be shut:
2 I will go before you
and will level the mountains;[a]
I will break down gates of bronze
and cut through bars of iron.
Then further we got this conclusion from the Lord .
Isaiah 49:25-30, 25 But this is what the Lord says:
‘Yes, captives will be taken from warriors,
and plunder retrieved from the fierce;
I will contend with those who contend with you,
and your children I will save.
26 I will make your oppressors eat their own flesh;
they will be drunk on their own blood, as with wine.
Then all mankind will know
that I, the Lord, am your Saviour,
your Redeemer, the Mighty One of Jacob.’
Whenever the word Jacob is mentioned in Bible, I take it for myself. God speaks to us in the spirit language. He tells you what is going to happen beforehand.
There was a time we cried out and wrote on the Bible , that I will be healed from diabetes. Sobha asked me to write on the Bible on which we prayed and our tears had fallen. The Word we received that day was Isaiah 43: 18-21 .
18 ‘Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
20 The wild animals honour me,
the jackals and the owls,
because I provide water in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland,
to give drink to my people, my chosen,
21 the people I formed for myself
that they may proclaim my praise.
Sales target they fixed for me was 5 million but by the end of the year (2012)the LORD made it 10 million.
I achieved 10 million, without any effort from me. The God who provided for Elijah was also taking care of us.
The Lord was talking to us through his Word at all times. Slowly by 2012 end we were watching a Benny Hinn program, he said, a man with Diabetes in middleeast is healed. Sobha told me to claim it for myself. We believed it and took it for us. After a week the Doctor did a Lipid profile & sugar test, I got complete healing from cholesterol, triglyceride and sugar . The figures were better than ever before - it was like the reading of a healthy youngster. Praise the Lord, Hallelujah…… We told the Doctor about our Lord’s work on me. God is guiding our path to this day. We cannot go a single day ahead without him. Bless the Lord all my soul. He is an awesome God. I have learnt to walk with him. I have been consuming Scripture ever since. I give messages once in a while at our family prayer. It heals me while I say it. I remember the first time I spoke at our Family prayer, Satan was trying his best with me during that time of depression. My tongue was sticking and was feeling very low, but I decided no matter what happens I will speak it out. I had a vomiting sensation. I believe our words are powerful. God created everything in this world through His Word. We need to declare our healing literally, we need to claim our blessings. Don’t worry about the situation or future. We have the power to command our situation and speak to our future in the name of JESUS. You control the future through your words by the Fathers will. This world is currently filled with mans knowledge . Isn’t it so annoying? I hate to read the papers and hate the conversations of people believing only on what they see and hear. God has prepared for us, “What eye has not seen and ear has not heard.” Man looks only at the external. God is past, present and future. He is out of time and space. As Habkkuk 2:14 says:
14 For the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the Lord
as the waters cover the sea.
Wow, isn’t that wonderful, it’s so relieving and joyous. As sales people we make a lot graphs and targets for tomorrow. But reality is totally different. When man works God rests. When man rests God works.
God has been working wonders and using us for his ministry. I have been teaching at Sunday school since 2012. Since last 1.5 yrs I have been leading the Area prayer of our Church. Sobha has been my right arm helping me in all this. We worship him now in truth and spirit. We want to be in the Lord’s ministry at all times, that’s a passion for us and our children. It’s a beginning of a new life. My age is only 2.5 years since the day I have been born again after that incident( May 2011).
Sobha got her healing with her skin situation she had for 17 years. Nethen was healed in 2012 from his wheezing problem. Joshua’s ear condition was wonderfully cured without surgery last year. His ear hole was really narrow - like a straight line. God touched his ear and widened it without any surgery. After his ear surgery in 2008, the Dr had hold that his ear hole should be widened within 3/4 years otherwise it’ll cause trouble if an infection occurs. We’d forgotten it completely but in 2012 we met the Dr to do a check-up & he reminded us about the surgery. Lord gave us an year to pray & in 2013 the same Dr said he doesn’t have to do any surgery for widening, may be think about it when he becomes 15 years. We believed it will not happen. We believe God has a purpose for Joshua in his Life. He always sings a song during some critical situations. God talks to us through him. It would be the answer what we would be looking for or something God will do. Before his surgery, as we were going to the hospital for surgery, he was singing the song - Yeriho ninte munpil edinju veezhum, Yeshuvin nammatthil nee arthidubol( the Jericho wall will fall down, when we call out the name of Jesus). God has been talking mysteriously to us through different things in life. We always search for that voice to make each step in our life. It’s the best journey we have had in our life. We spent almost all the time talking about the Lord. That’s all we know, that’s what we love.
I am still working at the same company so far. God has enabled us, if not I would have been kicked out the next day. God has been changing the situation gradually to fulfill His purpose. One of those days when we were fearing about our job,so much of injustice, manipulation and oppression , God gave us a verse through Sobha’s mother,
Eccle 5:8 If you see the oppression of the poor, and the violent perversion of justice and righteousness in a province, do not marvel at the matter; for high official watches over high official, and higher officials are over them.(Please read the Malayalam version, its more sharper)
Above my Manager, there was a Director. Above the Director there is my True Owner, My King, My GOD. He has to decide when I have to go from this company. Unless he decides no one can touch us.
We have found our identity in Christ. Every human being needs to find their identity in Christ. If we do not have that identity, our life would be without an eternal goal. All our life we would be getting busy settling crisis and other small issues in life. We would miss the will of God in this life. Millions of people are walking towards hell unknowingly. God has a burden for them. It makes us sad. Well one needs to find your identity in Christ. Could you tell me your identity in Christ- Read the below verse:-
1 Cor 12:28 28 In the church God has put all in place: in the first place apostles, in the second place prophets, and in the third place teachers; then those who perform miracles, followed by those who are given the power to heal or to help others or to direct them or to speak in strange tongues.
When we analysed our walk with God since 2011, we could find our identity. It has reached only its intial stage, day by day we can feel that it is growing and pray honestly that He fulfills His purpose through us.
We spent time meeting some Hindus and people who have been hit badly in life’s journey. God has made it possible for us to do it, As the scripture says,” You cannot do anything without me.”
This journey is amazing. It fills our heart and soul. In fact, I am more busy now and work at least 3 times more than I did before 2011. Our Focus is on saving and healing souls by sharing our experience we have had with God.
One of those days, as we were praying for the anointing of the Holy Spirit. A white Dove used to come and stay on our balcony for a few days strangely.
Psalm 107:20
He sends forth His word and heals them and rescues them from the pit and destruction.
We have been called to be stewards and ministers. If we fail to present the gospel and Jesus adequately or in any improper manner, God would definitely ask us. Stewards are accountable before God.
I lost my interest in watching the regular TV channels or read any secular magazines, nothing wrong with it. As the word says “ Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant in search of fine pearls, 46 who, on finding one pearl of great value, went and sold all that he had and bought it. “ God is showing us His Will in our life. It’s a journey of faith and life. We have not felt so alive than before. People around may make many comments, we are not bothered. People at my company , have now come to slowly understand the glory of our Lord. (Habbukuk2:3, 3 Put it in writing, because it is not yet time for it to come true. But the time is coming quickly, and what I show you will come true. It may seem slow in coming, but wait for it; it will certainly take place, and it will not be delayed.).We have kept this Word printed in the same Frame I received the Salesman award certificate.
October 2015, my wife and 11 year old son Joshua had to fly immediately to Kerala, Trivandrum for Joshua’s 3rd surgery for a cyst underneath his ear on the side of his face. There was a cartilage and fibrous tissue growth in his external ear. It initially appeared as a small red scar below the ears in 2008 January..It was Sobha’s Appa who saw the scar and referred to the ENT specialist at Swanthanam hospital , Trivandrum ..Dr John Panicker. Detection of such a cyst itself was a miracle ..As a 4 year old , he had to go through a major ear surgery , where the whole external ear had to be cut .Without intervention, the cyst would have grown into his skull, requiring more severe measures, potentially including radiation. For God, nothing remains hidden. Post surgery , the Doctor recommended that his ear being taken care of regularly and to be checked later on when he is grown up ….
For his regular ear check up , we used to meet Dr Hemjith at Aster Muteena, Dubai .. Dr Hemjith had said there is a tendency for the cartilage to grow, because cartilage has a memory to grow. It is tending to cover because of the Memory in its cells to grow back.As per the doctor , these surgical procedure was not a final solution for all of this .. This was the word the Doctor specifically told us—memory . As he was a child and had to go through different surgeries , it was not at all easy for us as parents to go through such painful procedures . At that time , we were praying with utmost grief and pain. I was here in UAE with work . We didn’t have the courage and boldness to make any decisions . The earlier surgery was for the inner ear canal. Finding the cyst itself was a miracle. It appeared only just as a small redness under his ear. This was external ear portion where the surgery had to done to block the growing cartilage . His hearing was perfect . There was no problem with his inner ear. Sobha received a word from the Lord on the eve of the surgery Oct 2015 .The amazing word Sobha received before the surgery was so specific. It was Ex17:14 Verse 14 - "Then the LORD said to Moses, “Write this as a MEMORIAL in a BOOK and recite it in the EARS of JOSHUA, that I will utterly blot out the MEMORY of Amalek(enemies) from under heaven.” It was a prophetic word which spoke to our son . Joshua asked , how is that God could speak to us so accurately into my situation.
1. Memorial in a book
2. Ears of Joshua
3. Blot out the Memory of the Cartilage from under heaven.
After the surgery, the doctor advised us to stay in India for a whole year for regular monitoring due to his deep concern. We were told to pack our bags and prepare for an extended stay, even possibly for the rest of our lives, as the cyst posed a threat of affecting the child's mental health and overall well-being. Crying out for the revelation of truth, we believe that God opens His word to us. Upon receiving His word, our responsibility is to accept and follow it. Joshua remains in good health, and since the revelation, no further medical intervention has been required, no knife has touched his ear yet . Seeking truth ensures that God generously provides it, regardless of our background or beliefs. It's crucial to recognize the source of truth and adhere to it for a meaningful and joyful life. The confidence we gained from this word has proven true, and Joshua continues to be perfectly fine. The enduring mercy of God has been evident throughout this journey, affirming His goodness.
Amen....Glory JESUS!!!!
PRAISE BE TO OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR JESUS CHRIST.
HALLELUJAH!
